P.L.U.R

I was born in the wrong era; there's no other explanation, that has to be it. I hate almost everything about my generation, and I disagree with the way a lot of things are done in these times.


I get to talking, and you'd swear I came from a mother that constantly speaks of peace and love, and a father that goes on about inequality and "the man" constantly bringing us down. Truth of the matter is, my parents live for "the man", doing any and everything to just get through life as best as possible. My mother is the hardest working person I know, and my dad is your classic gentleman, he makes me believe that maybe chivalry isn't dead.


I have such strong beliefs on everything having to do with life, and the way mine should be lived:


PEACE-All I want is PEACE on this earth; within myself and for this nation, this world. I struggle to find my inner-peace, more and more as the days go by. I lost myself awhile ago, and the sad thing is, it's be so long I can't even tell you when I began to get lost. On the daily basis I fight a war within myself; good vs. evil, love vs. hate. Sadly, most days I loose, due to the lack of effort, or due to the lack of knowledge. My mom has always told me that I am an "old soul", wise beyond my years, and I fear as though my soul may have aged faster than my mind. I am not proud of things I've said or done at times, but I can't ever bring myself to say that I have any regrets, because I believe that everything happens for a reason. Sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together. I get so wrapped up in religious, political, and social beliefs, never expressing mine, just expanding on my views. Why are there so many things wrong in this world today? We are told that this is a Democracy, yet we are told what we can and can't do, and what is and isn't acceptable to do or say. Peace, "When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace." -Bob Marley


LOVE-The love I have for my family is a love that could never be broken, and barely tainted. My immediates; my mom, my dad, and my brother, they are my rock, my rib, and my backbone. The love I have for God for just giving me the gift of life is that of appreciation and admiration. The love I have for money I will admit wouldn't be as much if this society didn't put so much pressure on actually having some. I love this Earth, and the herbal on it, for I will say, I probably would have taken my own life by now if it wasn't for marijuana, a pen and a piece of paper. All the people that have come and gone in my life, I have a love for them as well, without them, I wouldn't have learned the lessons I've learned; I can't do it on my own. To Jovan, and to Lewis, I will always hold a special love for you. Out of any relationships I've ever had, these 2 had my heart, (not at the same time of course), and I gave both of them a piece to my soul. Love, please don't take it for granted. When you have it, hold on to it, whether it be family, relationship, friends, whatever, just hold on to it; ALWAYS. "I have found the paradox that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." -Mother Teresa


UNITY-John Lennon said it all when he said "A dream you dream alone, is only a dream. A dream you dream together, is reality."


RESPECT-I'm a BiG believer in "what you give is what you get", so in terms of respect, if you give it, you get it. I will say this, my parents are the ONLY people who get an automatic 110% amount of respect from me without having to give it in return. Respect, just like money makes the world go round. If nobody respects you, then nobody will listen to you, and everybody wants to be heard. First respect yourself, this is key, if you have respect for yourself, then you're more open to having respect for others. Second, know when you've met your match, keeping your dignity in tact is also a part of respect. "Respect for ourselves guides our morals; respect for others guides our manners." -Laurence Sterne


I am a hippie. I believe in Peace, Love, Unity, and Respect; I live by these four things, you can live vicariously through me if you please.

With love,

Marilyn Ca$h

C O M M i T T E D

They say the first step to getting over an addiction/problem is admittance; only problem is I'm not addicted, I'm committed.

It's nice when I have those days when I can just lay back and free my scalp. Those times are extremely rare these days, as actual down time with you is hard to come across. I guess you could say that  not having you there 24/7 makes me appreciate you that much more when I'm reunited with you. 

We connect in a way that is unexplainable to someone who has never experienced your mind-numbing trance. Sometimes I feel as though it's just you and me against the world. See, you understand me in a way that nobody else could even fathom, you get it without me even having to say a word. You embrace me fully when you're around, both mentally and physically. I could be having the worst day in the world, and like Captain Save-a-Hoe, you swoop in and make me forget about all the bullshit for awhile, long enough for me to step back and re-evaluate everything. I could never love another like I love you, because you're always there for me when everybody else turns their back. It's been awhile since we've had a one on one, but when the time comes, I've got a lot to let go and tell you. 

Reading this you might think I'm addicted, but I go above and beyond for Mary Jane. It's pure commitment.

I prefer my eyes low,

Marilyn Ca$h

Same Game, Different Guy

I'm ready for something real in life, relationship wise. I want a challenge; i need that challenge. 

I grow weary of the same type of guys approaching me, eventually playing the same games as all the last. My problem is, I fall for the smile. I get swept up in everything that comes out of the mouth, when it's never anything more than game. I tend to hear what I want, but what sucks even more, is people read me like a book, so guys see that, and they tell me exactly what I want to hear, like whispering sweet nothings to me.

Over the past couple of years, I have come to the realization that I attract a certain type of guy, and that type unfortunately is asshole. I'm not saying that EVERY single guy that has ever liked me is in fact an asshole, but the ones that have come forth and showed interest are. At this point, I have no tolerance for bullshit, games, or stupidity, so my type is slowly changing, and I'm getting better at weeding out the good from the bad.

I'm not trying to be one of these girls that will remain "the girlfriend" for the rest of her life. I'm trying to be on "L E A D i N G   L A D Y/W i F E Y" status ha, so no more games fellas. That goes for the treatment of all females, just treat us like queens & you'll be made a king.

-Marilyn Ca$h   

I GIVE YOU, MARILYN CA$H.

Hi, 

I'm Marilyn, Marilyn Ca$h to be exact. This whole introduction thing, I'm only going to do it once, so keep up. My real name is Brittany Porter, but Brittany is so typical these days, and when most people hear "porter," they almost immediately think of a port-a-potty. As far as this blog goes, I am Marilyn Ca$h, tehe, call it an alter-ego if you will. 

There are alot of things in life that bring me joy. When you exclude family, marijuana, and friends, you have M O N E Y and my reoccurring obsession of Ms.MARiLYN MONROE. If you switch them around and put them together, in a rough translation you get Marilyn Ca$h, which may be dumb to you, but plenty brilliant to me.

I'm backing off of the people pleasing, and doing a little bit more for me these days. These are my thoughts, my actions, and my words. Like I said, I'm only doing this introduction thing once, so my name is Marilyn Ca$h, and it is very nice to meet you. (:

Sincerely,

Ms. Ca$hhh